Thursday, May 3, 2007

Tuesday, May 1st

Today was a bad day.

Actually, it was quite a nice day. We had a lovely dinner at Tsar's Palace, saw a fun comedy show from one of the ex-writers from Benny Hill, we laughed, we all chatted...on paper it was a very nice day.

But today, it all hit me. Like the beer-bellied old man with goggles on getting whacked in the stomach with a cannonball, it hit me.

I live on a ship. I am very far from home. I haven't been able to call my family in almost a week. I am always behind someone riding one of these:

I am never, ever alone. I always have to watch what I say. I always have to be friendly.

I cannot go grocery shopping. I hate grocery shopping. In fact, I use PeaPod. But the fact that I can't go grocery shopping made me upset.

It's been two months, and it is bound to hit, and today is when it hit. And please don't give me the, "Children are starving in China" speech. I know my life is fantastic. I know I'm going to Rome on Thursday. I know I'm getting paid to perform and travel around the world.

But, I still think I might feel better if I go into one of the lounges and yell "Bingo!" and run away.

1 comment:

Carrie said...

Katie, being the worlds most anxious person, I can relate.

This is the part of your eliptical workout when you think you might die. You are like, "How am I ever going to do this for 35 minutes? I've only been doing this for 5 and I'm about to pass out." But once you get through it, you're going to settle into a pace and when you're done, you're going to feel amazing. The same thing happened when I had to fast before having elbow surgery. At lunch time I was like, "How am I going to go a day without eating?" But after that feeling in the pit of my stomach passed, it was fine. And every extended vacation has that period when you want to go home. But you always push through that and have more fun than ever afterwards. You're molting. Your old skin is shedding. Its painful at first, but the results will be beautiful.

I know you know all this, but I really wanted to put the concept into at least 3 metaphors to reassure you. Since you're always a positive ray of sunshine, I threw in an extra one. =)

Really enjoying the blog!